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Monday, January 21, 2008
the days are starting to close in on me
the fear is increasing
panic is heightened to a brand new level.
okay, didnt work today so pract slacked the whole day through. went to the dentist in the morning and he was pretty nice. everything was ok so the next check up would b in half a year. walked around with mum and visited suet at the office. lols. went home and pract watched tv the whole day at home. received a sms from mummy which confirmed tat results are this fucking thurs. im damn bloody hell scared. have never been so petrified of anything in my whole life, although my parents keep sayin tat wtvr result i get doesnt matter, but...sometimes, its not abt jus fufilling your parents expectations, its also about your own future and dreams. im frightened but not so much of getting bad grades, but actually failing. everyone keeps telling me that its impossible, but i dont think so. everyone around me keeps tellin me the same sentence, "no worries, confirm can do well de, its unlikely to actually fail your o's". but the truth of the matter is, its actually not that hard for someone who hasnt been doing well academically for ages, esp for someone like me. i no that my frens n family jus tell me tat cause they dont wan me to worry and because they care, but its realli a scary experience, countin the days towards that day. scared of wad expression mrs leong will actually give me, i no im over reactin but...., mayb im havn the jitters, i no everyone will have them but my case seems to b extreme. haix. ive been havin weird dreams everynite since last wk abt the stupid results. lols. 3 more days to go.
valentine's day/7:18 AM
